9 of my Loves

Nine Loves

(Leaving out the obvious - family and friends)

{ 1 } Christmas baking. I've had all the cookies, squares and chocolates a girl can dream of right at my disposal.

{ 2 } Christmas movies - they're really getting me in the mood. Love Actually is my new favorite.

{ 3 } Sleep. I can't complain much, because lately the daughter has been sleeping great. But to get to go to bed at whatever time I want and get up at whatever time I want? That would be pure heaven.

{ 4 } Tv shows on dvd. I talk about them too often, but they are so great. I love nothing more than watching a show from beginning to end, without having to wait for the next episode on tv. Plus I can watch them over and over again. An expensive addiction, but I love it so much. 

{ 5 } Learning photography. I've ignored it for months and months, due to this whole new baby thing, but over the weekend I came across some tips on Pinterest, then played around with my camera to try and figure them out. I didn't get the results I wanted, but I learned a little bit more about working my SLR camera. 

{ 6 } My own bed. It's so comfy and I sure do miss it after spending a few nights on Mom's pull-out couch. 

{ 7 } Free samples. Similar sends out free samples so I ordered one to be sent here and mom got one sent to her place. I just got the two of them today. Two sample cans = one regular can, which means lots of $$$ saved. 

{ 8 } Presents. Call me greedy and missing the meaning of Christmas, but I am so excited to see what Chloe got for Christmas from anyone. I'm not as concerned with my presents :p

{ 9 } Arby's. Such a strange thing to put on a 'love' list, but I love Arby's, and I can only have it when I go to visit A., which doesn't happen nearly enough. I was reminded of this love whenever they sent me a BOGO coupon in my email. Totally printing that off to use when I go up there in the new year. 

10 of my Secrets

Ten Secrets

{ 1 } I recently rejoined the online dating world. I've come to realize that most of the people on there are insanely boring. If the conversation gets dry after two messages, obviously it's not going to work out. 

{ 2 } Sometimes when the baby is asleep, I know I should be tidying up, making her bottles, or even feeding my growling stomach, but I just can't get myself to get up. Some days even the coffee can't get me motivated. But hey, her bottles get done before she needs them and I get fed before I start to fade away. It all works out in the end.

{ 3 } My daughter makes me smile, makes me laugh. When she takes a long nap I'm usually excited when she wakes up because I missed holding her. Sometimes her cries are even adorable to me. I would rather be with her than with anyone in the world. With that being said, I can't stand people who look at taking care of their child as a job. One day she won't need to be taken care of, I'll have all the free time I need, and I'll miss it like crazy. With that being said, sometimes I literally cringe when I think she's waking up.

{ 4 } I feel guilty. There are a few people in my life who have done so much for me with no demands in return, no questions asked. I don't feel like I'll ever be able to make it up to them.

{ 5 } I also feel guilty about the amount of time I spend on the computer, versus doing other things in life. I plan to change that very soon.

{ 6 } I overwhelm myself at times with my obsessive need to documents things, especially in photograph form. I worry that there's not enough nice pictures of Chloe, not enough pictures of me and her, no pictures of her with friends and family. I am not happy that I couldn't take her two month photos on her two-month mark, because I didn't have the battery charger for my SLR.

{ 7 } I kind of believe that I won't ever find the person I'm supposed to be with. It's always going to be a mixture of me liking someone who doesn't feel the same, or someone liking me when I don't really feel the same. There's never going to be that happy, perfect middle ground.

{ 8 } I hate living in a basement apartment where the windows are too wide for my curtains. Sometimes I just like to walk around in my bra.

{ 9 } I don't know what I want to do with my life. A few different times, I thought I did but then changed my mind. I want a career and so far I don't think I've found it. Since I'm 24 now, it makes me pretty sad to still not really have a dream. 

{ 10 } I worry a lot about how I'm going to survive when I go back to work at the end of my year off. I hate the idea of putting Chloe in day care, and I'm a little stressed because I should be looking for a day care already - they're hard to get into. 

* I found this at Life with the D's.