I never take pictures anymore.
I take a decent amount of Chloe, but that's to be expected, and even then I take less than I ever thought I would of her. But I never take pictures of anything or anyone else anymore.
I got depressed a couple of years ago when I broke my 'bar' camera, the camera I used to drag with me when I was drinking to document everything. I used to have photos of every drunk night I ever had. Every trip to the beach. Every. Little. Thing.
I think this is the last photo I took during a night with friends. More than 5 months ago, the first night I drank after having Chloe.
Usually, I don't even think about pulling out a camera. I have a camera phone for any photo emergencies, but even my digital camera is always in my purse but never gets any use. It makes me sad.
Sad, because I had a wonderful weekend and no proof of it. My friend was visiting for the weekend, and even though we said we'd take a nice picture of her and Chloe, we never did. Not one picture was taken of her the entire weekend.
I also went to a party with my boyfriend and his friends this weekend. I had so much fun, but again, no pictures.
I used to take pictures with everyone I met, strangers I'd never see again, anyone. Yet I have this boyfriend that I've been dating for two months and we have one picture together. That I didn't take. That I'll probably never see because it was taken about a month ago with someone's phone. It's so unlike me.
I miss having tons of photos of everything I do, but it's nice to finally be actually enjoying life, instead of simply documenting it.
My goal for the summer is to take lots more pictures. Of Chloe, but not just Chloe.